Wanna read an example of something crazy? Something you might even call “the final straw”?
Here ya go.
My husband, who has not visited me in 6 months because he’s so “busy” just offered to come retrieve my leased car. This would leave me absolutely stranded without a vehicle. He’s too busy to visit even once in 6 months yet he’s totally willing to strand me without transportation.
What a guy, what a guy.
But, instead of endlessly examining the above details, let’s move on to the real point of this post. How to finally let go of this fury and anger? Listen, he’s a douche. A jerk. Selfish, shallow and utterly dishonest.
Repeating those facts over and over doesn’t change anything and it certainly doesn’t make me feel better. It only encourages me to hold on to the anger.
And here’s another annoying fact. Holding all that anger, bitterness, betrayal and fury inside only hurts me. ME, not him. I can actually feel it hurting me, turning my insides to mush.
The best advice I read today says that the only way to let go of anger is to love.
Love the person.
Ask God to love them.
Pray for God to love you and to also love the person you hate.
Can I be honest and admit that I DON’T want to do that right now? I want God to hate him, too! To punish him! To strip him of any delight or peace or joy! To banish him from success in any area…
Annnnnd this is exactly where I trip up. It doesn’t feel right. Wishing retribution on him just feels wrong. Instinctively, I know that it’s not my place to mete out judgment.
But, if that’s not my place, what is?
I inspire. I encourage. I delight. That’s what I do, and it’s truly, honestly what I do best. Anger, hate, and confusion only sap my strength, dilute my creativity and in the end, steal my light.
So, guess who I’ll be praying for tonight? Me. And, for that jerkface too. :/Today’s Positives:
Gym- abs, rear, arms, more rear
sold a tag sale mid-century modern chair for $90 profit
had coffee with a friend
Did you have any positives today? I’ll bet that you did :) Tell me below in the comments, I’d love to read about your victories today, no matter how small.